Postpartum: My Emotions
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I really don't understand myself now. I feel tired. I am full of emotions, to the point that I cry just because I feel like crying with no specific reasons. I feel like I don't have time for myself anymore because everyone expects me to do everything and be responsible about EVERYTHING! I feel so overwhelmed. I am trying my best to be the superwoman of this family, but for some reasons it's just not happening. It is harder when your partner doesn't understand you, and then you have a hard time expressing yourself, and then he mocks you, and then you fight. Now that I'm being too focused with my emotions, busying myself fighting with my partner, all efforts to make him understand me, it makes me feel guilty because I am not being a good mother to my baby this way. I know I can do better. But when will I ever do it right? I feel like no one around me is helping me get through this. I can't even get the validation from my partner that I'm doing just fine as a first time mom.
This is obviously a postpartum depression. Thank you google for educating me about what I am going through right now. For all the first time moms out there, if you have been feeling sad or feeling blue, if you can't seem to understand yourselves days, weeks or even months after giving birth, you are probably going through a postpartum depression as well. Click here to understand the hormonal changes behind it and why 90% of new moms go through a postpartum depression. Click here to know the symptoms and learn if you are really experiencing a postpartum depression. If you're a mom who is also going through this phase I'd like you to know that what you are feeling right now is completely NORMAL! Communicate this with your partner, but if you have an insensitive partner like mine don't be shy to seek help from a professional. I recently had myself checked by a psychiatrist and she prescribed me with an anti-depressant, let's see how that goes.
For all experienced moms out there, let me know how you survived postpartum depression on the comments below. I'd love to learn from you guys!